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I know I need to be more patient. Superstar and I have always lived together and made our 'big' decisions pretty quickly. Perhaps God is demonstrating how patience can lead you to better things. The star and I have had something before us.....conversation for as long as it takes, usually not more than an hour...then decide. So we didn't really follow that for NY, but it is challenging us to be patient. I have all my faith in Christ Jesus. That doesn't mean that my human tendency to question and doubt is gone for sure. I do know that God does not want to lead me astray. He toedmedat. And so, I am standing at the Red Sea-or is that the Hudson River?-waiting for it to part. I see others on the other side of the sea, and those standing around me on this side. I look forward to seeing the sea crash over the egyptians in my life as kkft begins in nyc.

So I suppose I'm not suppose to leave a questioning post on my blog. Thanks to all my homeys that were concerned with my last post, but it was simply my random blabbing. I'm still committed to NYC, I'm not doubting that AT ALL. The thing I was writing about is something else that if it is really God calling me, it is going to change things. Again. Imagine that, God changing the direction of your life. Huh, I've never experienced that before. (If you don't know me, that is sarcasm) The post was almost my thought process on this thing. And it only came before me on Tuesday, so my tendency to be unpatient shines through. I (along with Superstar) would like to talk about it for 30 seconds, then move on. That's not how God continues to open the doors to NYC, and i am still learning the patience is a virtue thing. Relax. I'm not freaking out. I'm just processing along with you. But like I said, thanks for all my homeys.

So you think you think you think. Then you think it might be God talking to you. Maybe it is something different than what you thought you thought. Maybe you think you thought wrong. How do you really know when God doesn't seem to provide actual burning bushes anymore, or have the ground open up and eat people, or part the red sea in front of you so you know it has to be him. If anyone can tell me that, please post to this so that I can be sure that I really know. Thanks.

There is a teacher at my school that I care for deeply. The sweetest person I have ever met in my life. EVER. She has had a lot on her plate the last couple of years, but she keeps on eating what God feeds her. She has given her problems to him. After a divorce unexpected after twenty some years of marriage, God is her new husband.(Her words). We have been sharing with each other the good times, the tough times, the ugly times in our walks recently. Each of us has shared something that totally encourages the other at just the right time. HMMMM. I wonder why. Because God cares for us. Not just her and I, but all of us. She is like a mother to me, and I will miss going to her room to get cheered up when I need it. I will miss her "Oh,,,,,,Timm,,,,,,," with a smile and a hug. She has decided that this is her last year to be a teacher, and her heart and her commitment to loving each kid and each staff member, no matter what is going to be hard to replace. I know th...

Well, unlike kallen, my flight flew out on time from LaGuardia, which was nice. I spent Saturday morning going uptown into the Bronx, and then walked in Central Park. Sat quietly for some time. Friday night I was certainly under attack from Satan. He tried to tell me I wasn't good enough, I couldn't afford this, I wouldn't get a job, blah, blah, blah. Of course, being the stupid human that I am, I listened for a while. But again, God speaks to those who listen. Thank you for that. Now I am back in Michigan, and it is true that it is warmer in NY. Easter is the message of hope that I certainly need. Jesus came, he was God in flesh, he spoke the truth in love, he suffered and died so that my sins would be forgiven. Then he was raised from the dead breaking all that people knew about life, so that we might have life to the full. Cut to the scene of flowers blooming, grass turning green, rainbows keeping God's promises, pan to the beautiful blue sky over blue wat...

If you haven't read the book 'dinner with a perfect stranger', you need to. I was fortunate enough to have dinner two nights in a row with kallen man. Laughs, memories, sharing our fears, looking forward, etc. Great to spend time with him. Come to think of it, I may never have spent time just he and I. Look forward to being in communitas with the kallen family. Interview with nlns today was really cool, should know three weeks from today if I'm asked back for 'finalist selection day'. All day affair. Also got put into the ring for three other positions I didn't even know about yesterday because of my meeting. God is on the move, and I hope to have more dinners in NYC with non-perfect strangers as I attempt my best to follow....

Today was the first day that I have been an official member of communitas and broke bread with another physically in the city. The New York Grill on Columbus. Kallen has many memories of living/working/playing in the city in his twenties. It was great to hear some of those memories tonight. We both shared some great news from our interviews today. Mine was only proof that God is at work. I set up a face to face with people I interviewed on the phone with. The story is too long to explain, but suffice to say the lady I was meeting gave me names of people to speak with and drop her name at the interviews I have tomorrow. Oh, and she is going to recommend me for three more jobs that I didn't even know about. Yeah, I think God has this worked out. Also looked at many apartments. Costly. Expensive. Again, let's see how God works this out. It was something special to walk into an apartment thinking about how it would look as the T$'s family home. Hugging superstar while we smile ...

I write the blog today from W. 75th Street, between Central Park West and Columbus. I wept as I rode in on the taxi, and saw people reflecting God's image to me. Yankee said we need to see what God sees, and I think he gave me a VERY SMALL glimpse into that today. I love how God is creative and loving. His grace and mercy are more than I can stand. I love him dearly, and can't wait to see what tomorrow holds.

So in church Sunday, Yankee says 'when are you going to NY?' I said Tuesday. He said-'Wow, that's this week.' DRAMATIC PAUSE. STARES AT ME. DRAMATIC PAUSE. "This could be it," he says, and smiled joyously. That's when it hit me. This could be it. I pray that God will help me to see, help me to hear, so that His plan is the only option.

This is my new boy-Carter. Lost his job to a lay off. Wife is living with his mother in law. He is staying in a shelter because he lost his apartment by not keeping up. The frustration he explained to me was pungeant. He was upset that he didn't get hired at McDonalds because a younger kid got the job. He told me about needing to get to Birmingham to apply for a janitorial gig, but no bus fare. I gave him the bus fare and some extra. We prayed together. Have to be honest, kind of odd praying with a total stranger. But his eyes welled up, and he told me this was a moment he would never forget. He promised he would come back next month to see me. We hugged and cried together. God loves him more than I do, but I had compassion for him in his position. He was thankful. He was happy for a little while. I pray that God will bless him.

I can't believe I haven't posted all week, especially when so much has happened. Went to MAMSE conference this week-awesome to have our staff there. Office space now is set in Gramercy, oh and by the by, a key to the park. Space now available in Gramercy in partnership with another church. Did the flood gates open when the pastor told God he was ready? Perhaps. The biggest revelation was with pastor on Tuesday. He showed me a diagram, and the explanation of how that fits into John 14. People "believe" in God, and try to obey him. That is surely doomed for failure. The only way you can obey Him is if you first seek Him, then know Him. If you get through those two, then it is possible to love Him. If you don't love Him, you can't obey Him. Good luck to all of us. I can tell you since I started seeking him-and I mean spending time reading the bible daily, taking time to "Be still and know that I am the Lord" (Psalms 46:10) so He could give m...

So Friday morning I thought for a few minutes 'what if the job opportunities I'm in the mix for don't result in a job?' Not for long, and I wasn't freaking out, I just was thinking what if it doesn't get to a job? So I get an email a couple hours later to come to NY for a job interview on the 13th. OK, now I'm freaking out. No one has asked me to come there yet. I'm supposed to be at a conference on the 13th....aaaaaaaahhhhhhh! So I call superstar and tell her-cool, call and see if that's the only day available. OK. I forgot my phone at home that morning, and superstar being the servant she is dropped it off in my Jeep. So I tell her I'm going to go get my phone to see if they called also. Nope, but another organization did to schedule a first round interview. ALRIGHT GOD-I GET IT. Thank you!!!! So long story short, I've got both of them scheduled on the 20th in NYC. Checked flights Friday-almost $300 round trip, but waited unti...

And so the Communitas team grows, and continues to grow. As God works in each member of Communitas, I am amazed at what God can accomplish in and through a person when the person actually listens to God, develops the relationship with God, and obeys Him when he asks us to do something. Unbelieveable. So the team plods along, and the Pastor is on fire this week. Very motivating. KKallen is in NY interviewing for multiple postions on Tuesday and Wednesday last week. He gets the one, and it looks like he may get the other as well. -Pan across scene of Flood Gates opening and the water pouring through- The sick Pete family rented their house. I have two interviews in NY on the 20th. We have a PO, we are officially a 503c. Here comes the sweet waters of God's blessing on us because we took the time to listen, we obeyed, and his blessings are pouring out onto us. Thank you God. We love you, and we are doing our best to obey. Guide us all.

Just fun stuff today. Before and after pictures of the haircuts.

So for KKFT we did a fun thing with the girls-you pose a question and write down three things-Example-favorite food-burger, tacos, good bread. It was fun, then you guess what the others in your family wrote. So Superstar reads the question-Your three best friends. Huh. Tough to answer. Of course, fish man pops in my head because we haven't seen each other in years, but when we do, it's as if no time has passed. Berman pops in my head because we have been friends for 12 years now (ouch-i'm old), or mg, or the Donald, or.....huh. Tough to answer. But how do we define freindship? If it is someone that really knows your heart, really knows everything, really holds you accountable, really has had profound conversations? Superstar rises to the top, of course. Funny, but I never would have put her on that list in the past. Not implying anything here, just being honest, but I contend that we are closer now than ever. (Have I mentioned that I love her? See the post ...

If you can do these three things, you can follow Jesus. God will reveal himself to you throught the Holy Spirit. He will speak to you. My faith has never been stronger-because I have been consistently doing these three things. I always thought people were freaks that talked like this, or said they heard God speak to them. Now I know that I was the freak that didn't want to humble himself before God and confess my sins. If you don't confess first (AND I MEAN EVERYTHING), his voice will be clouded by your sin. If you truly make the choice to believe in Jesus Christ, and submit ALL to the creator of the universe, the Holy Spirit will come upon you and reveal God's word to you. I believe. Therefore, I am going to listen, obey, and pray. Why don't you "Come, follow me?"