Now Testing: Patience

So I have not (that I'm aware of) blogged on the status of my principalship position for quite some time. As a PIR, I have been quite busy with helping in the opening of a new school this fall, and learning lots about all the things that I will need to pay attention to in opening my own school. However, I interviewed with a potential board in November? They stated they hoped to make a decision by January 1. I spoke of my journey to nyc in the first interview, and that may have caused hesitation on their part based on feedback that I was given. And so I met with the entire board last night. And still no decision.

I know I need to trust God, and you would think that I would have learned by now that He will take care of my every need. So if I logically think that through, what exactly is it that is making me upset today? What is it that is causing me to feel confused? What is it that is causing anxiety for me? What is it that is making me feel a bit of anger toward this? It is hard for me today to not wrestle with these emotions, even knowing what I know. The unsurity in my mind of what it is that I am doing and what it is that I need to do is overwhelming today. I don't often have these feelings, and I am generally a very confident person. But today, I wonder why God is not answering my prayer the way I want Him to answer it? I will trust Him, even when it hurts.

Comments

Superstar said…
Do you still not understand? Praying for you today!!!!! Love you.
January 27, 2010 at 10:47 AM
Living My Backward's Life (formerly A Michigander Grows in Brooklyn) said…
I'm praying for you too. You must on to something good, or you wouldn't be attacked.
January 27, 2010 at 7:10 PM
Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Too, Too, Too Much Fun

Alright. So you're sitting in front of your computer right now. And you're saying to yourself at about 8:00 pm: "Huh. It's been dark out for nearly three and a half hours now. What else can we do for fun?" Well, sir, we have the answer. Take a look at this.
Read more

Righteous or Unrighteous?

Today, as I thoroughly enjoyed my walk to the school, I pondered quite a few things, as I often do on my walk. Sometimes I pray for people like Hammy, Jimmer, sick pete, mg, cdubs, pastor, beary, and the like. But today, I simply reveled in the fact that God loves me. As I watched the snow melting away, I could see the dirt and garbage left behind throughout my walk. I think of how God melts away our dirt and our garbage. How he longs to be in relationship with us, and how he cleanses our sins from existence. As the sun rose, I couldn't help but think of the verse I read this morning in Matthew 5:45 - "...that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes the sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous." I pondered if Jesus was walking with me, which of the above categories would HE put me in? I'm pretty sure the unrighteous one at times. But yet he still walks with me and leads my steps. He brings the heat ...
Read more

Casa de Kelly - a nice place to dine.

Image
It has been a challenging week for me personally. Struggling with some things personal in nature, nothing that I need to go into, but just working hard to keep my chin up. But encouragement comes to me through others that follow God. Thanks to sick Pete for his encouragement to me this week. Thanks to BK for his prayers and vulnerability. But my biggest thanks goes out to the kkft. After a tough week, I got an email yesterday from superstar saying she was hoping to take me out to dinner for drinks, conversation, and even dessert. But no sitter. So her and the girls were working on 'casa de kelly' restaurant in our apartment. I am almost certain it was the best restaurant I have ever visited in my life. Candlelight, mexican food and latin music, time to sit and chat with my wife, the girls serving us and giving us privacy (even had the taboo buzzer to call them when we needed something :)), it was my best night of the year by far. But perhaps the biggest part of the n...
Read more