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I suppose I am getting older.  I can't remember things anymore.  I don't remember what I have blogged and what I have not completely.  There are times I have a blog post topic, and then I never get to post it, but in my mind I think I had.  So bear with me as I get older.  Speaking of getting older, I tore my ACL in May.  Tweeked again in July.  Playing Ultimate Frisbee the first time, turning quickly the second.  I am not in my 20's anymore as my body reminds me periodically.  And that is ok.  I am enjoying getting older.  I really am.  The other night I got together with a couple of friends in the BKLY - friends I used to work a summer camp with - um, yeah - in 1992.  One of them I had literally not seen in over 20 years.  So back to the ACL.  Hocus Pocus you're off focus.  I have been happy to be in physical therapy for the last month.  I lost quite a bit of muscle in not using my knee after the inj...

I am not going to lie to you - the transition back to NYC this fall was the most challenging so far.  I am convinced that hitting the 'easy' button - i.e. returning to the suburbia life in Michigan - for July was part of that difficulty.  It is hard to live a life of comfort and ease and self-serving behaviors in a most luxurious and comfortable environment for nearly a month, and then return to the streets of Brooklyn.  I didn't want to engage with serving others first.  I kind of enjoyed serving myself for a while.  But the more time I spend walking around this place, the more I am reminded of why we are here on earth as followers of Jesus.  To lay down our lives and serve others first.  This is no small task.  As a matter of fact, I don't truly think it is possible to do.  Unless of course, we press into that which Jesus calls us to do - to rely on Him.  To trust that He knows what is best, to trust that His perfect limitless will fo...

Bristol, TN Well, it has been a month that I have not blogged.  Not to say that I haven't had thoughts to, or topics to, or what have you.  Truth be told, if I am not blogging regularly, there may well be some kind of correlation between that and my relationship with God.  As I meander off His path, I have less to consider in my mind and my spirit - hit the easy button and get on with your self.  But that is not so good for me.  Just sayin.  But this past weekend I got a chance to go to the night race in Bristol.  I did enjoy my time with D & D - and it was really an unbelievable experience.  And as I sat in the stands Saturday night in the mountains with 160,000 or so of my closest friends, I felt like God was reminding me of just how very good He is.  And that He wants me to experience the goodness of His riches and glory.  He wants all of us to.  And our personal pleasure and satisfaction in the way we pursue it may not ...

Well, it has been a month.  Unplugged.  Unchecked.  Not completely true that I was unplugged.  I actually worked quite a bit in July, but we did manage much joy.  Spent the month in the great state of Michigan.  Pure Michigan as they say.  Not sure what makes the smell of Detroit pure to others, but whatever floats on a great lake I suppose.  The month was great.  Enjoyed family time with all the cousins, bros, sisses, in-laws, out-laws, friends, etc.  Good times.  Even got our Cedar Point/Maples Motel trip in, and got to hang with Izzorama on some great kids rides.  She drove me in the pink monster truck you know.  It is nice to unplug from this city, take some deep breaths, renew, recharge, and reenergize.  Truth be told, I was getting a bit antsy to return.  It is hard not sleeping in your own bed and your own apartment for a month.  But as I drove down I-80/95 toward the city, I was reminded of God's ca...

Sixteen years ago today, in the great state of Michigan, it was 99 degrees outside.  (Or thereabouts) Hottest day of the year they say.  And it was a glorious day.  People always told me "you never forget your wedding day", and I never really knew what they were saying.  But today, 16 years later, I can remember nearly every minute detail of the day.  And included in each of those moments is a sense of pure joy.  You may know that I am somewhat of a dreamer, a visionary type if you will.  I have come to learn that this is what drives me to lead others, and pushes me to be my best at work, at home, and in my life.  I knew for certain I wanted to be with my superstar - early.  I had inclings along the way, but in 1992, I pushed for it.  In 1993 we had our first date, and the rest, as they say, is history.  This incredible Godly woman has changed my life in ways I never saw coming in my visionary picture of us being together.  ...

I mentioned in my last post that much time transpired between blogs - and one reason that was happening was because I felt uncommitted to writing a blog as I pondered many 'unknowns'.  I have come to a great realization that I personally enjoy the visionary lifestyle.  I want to see what things will look like way down the road.  I want to see my daughters in successful lives married to great Godly men, my marriage with superstar 10 years from now even more beautiful than today, my work broadening and seeing what and how I might be impacting and influencing leaders of schools, etc.  But this week I was encouraged by God and others to focus on today.  This moment.  God is quite comfortable with all those unknowns, and he wants me to be too.  Pastor (female, not male) reminded me yesterday that this is a trust issue.  Do I truly trust God with all the unknowns?  My answer must be - not so much.  I do know I trust Him completely, but time...

Hard to believe it has been over a month with no posting for me. I have had so many thoughts of 'oh, I need to blog that', or 'that is a blog post', or what eVAR. Truth be told, I have been lazy about it. I know, I know. Hard to believe. A lot has passed since then. I traveled 5 of 6 weeks in April/May, and that probably has a lot to do with no posting. Just didn't have the energy, and the time I did have I wanted to spend with the kkft or I knew that God was pushing me to engage with people - not myself. A lot going on: 1) I have a new supervisor, and our company is ramping up leadership development. This is a good thing in my eyes, and I have a lot of respect for our new boss. Also means that the Aussie and I are still on the same team - thank you God for a gift of another year working together. Also have another person joining our team - and she is awesome as well. I find it quite interesting that everyone on our new team is a Jesus follower. I wonde...