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So how do you best serve God's will here on earth when you completely disagree with how things are going? Frustration is only a 11 letter word, and my thoughts tend to go more with three four letter words, because that is clearer than frustration. Sometimes, I simply have to ask myself "WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE?" I know that I am not perfect, and I am CERTAIN that the last few years have taught me humility at an entirely new level. But how do people completely disregard others in order to serve themselves, and their own needs? There are situations in nyc where you must be assertive in order to not get trampled-sometimes literally as in a subway station, line of vehicles turning left, or the like. But in simple everyday interactions where you need to listen and think of others first, I find that my frustration with self serving people is HIGH. It is my hope that I never treated people like that in the past. I certainly try my absolute best to not treat them that w...

I had a lot of fun playing men's softball back in the day. Friends and family enjoying time together, the competition of sport, the laughs that never ended afterward at a place called Winners (even though we were mostly losers). And when someone was batting, and a pitch was bad, before the next pitch, we would say 'nowyagokid'. This phrase suddenly popped into my head after last night. The search for the 'right' middle school for Alli has taken many many months. Meetings. Prayer. Considerations. Seeking advice. Attending things. Bus rides. Travel. Time. Effort. But it was all very enjoyable (i think). We found out last week that our daughter hit the lottery. (And the kkft joked last night about the fact that alli is the only one in the family that has hit the lottery) She was accepted into a charter school in Brooklyn. We found out about this after I met for lunch with a school board member from another charter school our company has in Brooklyn. ...

Why do you run? What do you seek? What are you looking for? Where is it? Your thing you seek. It's not for you. It's for me. It's mine. You can't have it. You want it, but it's not yours. It's mine. Not for you. For me. My glory in you. Trust me. Why don't you trust me? What is it that you seek? It is mine. Trust me. Go. Among the nations. Seek me. My will For you. Trust me. Forever love.

No, I'm not sick. But Pete is. Sick Pete made his return to nyc yesterday, if only for one night. It was a great night of delicious dinner, conversation, laughs, and more laughs as we and pastor spent the evening together. I was reminded of the many conversations we have had over the last 2 1/2 years that have pushed me closer to God because of how sick pete has challenged me in my walk. It was such a nice evening to have, and I hope it happens more in the future. And speaking of Spring, my 'normal' drive home from school involves over a mile drive along Prospect Park. The drive does become mundane after a while, with all the lights, traffic, etc. But as pastor said last night, sometimes you see the city with new eyes and it catches you off guard. Yesterday, as I was on my way home to do a quick change and head off for the evening, I drove along the park and noticed the beauty of no longer being able to see into the park. Why you ask? Because the trees are nearly ...

It's not what you are thinking. Or is it? I remember as a young adolescent having the dream of being a performer. I wanted to be a 'movie star' and move to Hollywood or New York City and be on stage. Or on the big screen. The movie thing didn't really seem that possible to me back then, so I do remember wanting to be in plays. Perhaps that is why I was involved in my senior play in HS, and various community theatre productions in college. But my dream was to be on stage. On Broadway. Under the lights. In a real production. This weekend, my dream came true. It was not on Broadway, so I suppose it was an 'Off-Broadway' production. Actually, it wasn't much of a production. It was a simple set. Black boxes, folding chairs. There were lights, though, and I got to act with one of the most incredible actors (and mentors by the by) that I have ever met. So I finally made it. As blue eyes says-"if I can make it there, I'll make it....anywhe...

Well after a strong showing in my interview last week with a board from Queens, they have decided to hire another candidate. The other candidate lives in the neighborhood, so that makes sense. I am a bit bummed as I was thoroughly impressed with the board, their knowledge and determination. So again, we are unsure of what exactly that means for the work we thought might be on the horizon in a few different locations for me. You would think that I would be kind of freaking out at this point, wouldn't you? But I'm not. This must be the 'peace that surpasses all understanding'. Because in the past I would have been somewhat freaking out, if not heavily involved in the freakout process. But I trust God has a different plan. I don't know what that is. Today I have no idea. But I do know He has provided us with more than we ever imagined possible not only on our ny journey, but for all of our lives. So the door closes. It is hard to watch it close, but the ac...

I may have failed to mention that superstar gave her testimony on Easter at the sunrise (or is it sonrise?) service in Central Park. I didn't ball my eyes out or anything, but I do know that God has provided me with a more beautiful woman than I deserve, or ever imagined spending my life with. I am so fortunate that she loves me - even when I don't deserve it. She is not only beautiful physically (and keeps getting hotter if you ask me), but beautiful in intelligence, insight, and emotions. She is beautiful spiritually, and she is my everything. Today I found out that my principal's husband died yesterday. My heart weeps for her in her loss, and it reminds me of how much God has blessed me with a piece of his Beauty through the superstar. She may have downplayed her testimony story at the sunrise service, but her heart and soul continue to build me closer to the kingdom daily in our lives, and I thank her for that. I love her more each day. I wish others knew how m...

On yet another glorious run through the park this morning, I was struggling with something. I am to meet with the school board on Wednesday. Our HR chief called me yesterday to 'give me the heads up' on this week's interview. I have come to feel like we have a great relationship, and that I can be very open and honest with him about everything, and we have shared in some intense conversations on God and our walks. So he tells me the board is interviewing another candidate that they actually brought to NHA who is a strong candidate that is local. All I can do is my best, but it appears that maybe this school is not on the horizon. I don't know that, and I am going to hit another home run tomorrow night. But as I ran and pondered the possibilities, I felt like God again challenged me to the question: 'Will you trust me?' and my answer is "I sure hope so." It has been hard to go through the range of emotions once with thinking something would hap...

What a glorious Easter morning. And how is it that I can't get through an Easter morning without being overwhelmed with emotions? When you really take a few moments to ponder the true meaning of Easter and what happened 2010 years ago so that we might experience life, and experience it to the full, I don't think you can deny your emotions overtaking you. He died for me. That is what hits me so hard on Easter each year. For me. (Oh, and by the by, for you, and for every single person on earth that He created.) What love. Thank you for the grace and mercy and love. Not to mention superstar sharing her testimony that is so cool to listen to knowing what has brought her to where she is, and being in love with her for so many years now. The title of the post refers to the true vacation that continues today. Huge thanks to harry and donna for being the best hosts evar. What a beautiful place to stay, enjoy the girls, the beach, golf, water slides, food for kings, dq, shuff...