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This seems to be a pattern developing in a lot of areas of my life this week. First my cdubs not going to make it to nyc for this fall-so not for now. Meeting with the board that was supposed to happen tomorrow. Not right now. Hitting the lottery. Not right now. Fill in the blank. Not right now. So I am learning once again to lean on Him more in the moment. In the minute. In the hour. In the day that I am in. To not 'pack my bags and head off into the future' as pastor likes to say. To live for the moment and trust that His plan is much better than whatever it is that I come up with. And the 'peace that transcends all understanding' is palpable at times. Other times, I work myself into a frenzy because I'm too stubborn to tie up my selfish horse in the barn and walk out into the verdant pasture that He knows that I need and desire. So I pray that I would allow Jesus to help me tie up the horse and head out each moment of each day. And to realize th...

It has been somewhat busy as of late, especially coming off of a week of mid-winter break. Just catching up at school after being off is a task. But there is much to tell about. -Allison will complete her interviews for middle schools next week for two middle schools she would like to be at. Both have performing arts curriculum possibilities, which I think Alli really has a talent for, and I know that God has given her some very creative abilities. So pray that God will open the doors He wants for her, and close the doors where He doesn't want her. I know she is a great kid, and I am ever so proud of her almost ALL the time, and because of who she is I think she will be successful wherever she goes. But I also know how important it is for young adolescents to grow in a community that loves and supports them, where they can explore and learn about themselves and the world, and I just pray that God would lead her through all of that. -I will have another meeting with the school...

I still await a decision from the board on their selection as a principal. I at least think that I am doing well with that waiting, although I really wish it was all over. But I do trust that God is in control of all things in all situations, and I wait for Him to reveal to me what exactly this all means to me and how I am to grow in faith and patience and perseverance. I know my prize awaits, not in a job, not in a location, but in Him. I am reminded two day after two days on meeting with others in our organization that I have an incredible place to work with incredible people in an incredible organization. And my hope is that two years from now, I will receive awards for our school on behalf of all the incredible people that work there, and for the care and concern and hard work they demonstrate on a daily basis for our students sake. I am also thankful for my beautiful wife, and my beautiful daughters. I love my wife so much it pains my heart to think that I put my self before...

I can't seem to count the number of years in my head to get back to the first Superbowl bows weekend extravaganza at JW's cabin. I think 10 or more? But this was the first Superbowl weekend in a long time that I did not enjoy the all male card playing beer drinking laugh induced stupor that goes along with our annual trip. Along with no water, no heat, or something like that on each of those weekends, was many laughs and enjoyable time together. This year was equally as fun, however. It was small group friday-including thai food. KKFT Saturday night fun festival-while we air guitared with our girls to some of our favorite songs. And a 'mini' boys festival where 11 men came to play poker and enjoy the game. Although some people were mad that I won the pool several times, I clearly enjoyed the evening. A new tradition? Time will tell. But best of all the non-typical events of the weekend was the book of Hebrews. Chapters 10/11/12 poured into my heart of struggle...

Why is it that when we have a want for something we act like we are three year olds shouting MINE!? Why is it so hard to be humble enough to just simply be in the moment and not be preoccupied with what it is WE want? In my case, this 'job' that I thought I had come to nyc for has not been ratified yet. I always knew it wasn't for sure, but it looked very solid from all angles. Except for the fact that when it comes down to it, it is not secured yet. Why do I doubt? Because I have to wait a little longer? Because it didn't happen when I wanted it to happen, or when I thought it was going to happen? In my head, and on paper, January 1 was the date that I thought and it was stated this position would be announced/approved, however you want to say it. But not yet. February 5th. Not yet. I don't like the waiting. I don't like the fact that I thought something was going to happen, and it didn't. I don't like, I don't like, I don't like. ...

Five thirty is pretty early by all standards in all places as far as I'm concerned. Don't mind the fact that my alarm going off in my head became part of my dream where we were growing potatoes in a forest in order to improve student learning, and the alarm sound somehow indicated it was time for a harvest until I realized just what was going on, and turned off my alarm. But as the cobwebs wore off, and the clouds moved away from my brain, and I became coherent enough to push the button that would create delicious coffee for my daily mug and thermos, my brain surmised that it had snowed last night. Not much, maybe an inch or two. But as you look out over Brooklyn, everything is covered with a delicate layer of white, and the sidewalks are still full of a blanket. The cars are still wearing their shield of white. Trees have some on all of the branches. The table and chairs on the balcony look like a painting with their picturesque surreal look to them. And as the coffee ...