**Mustard Seed Distributed**

This week, I was truly humbled in my work. Funny that I got a call from my broseph in MI that felt the same thing this week. It hurts when someone has to tell you that you are not meeting expectations. There are many complicated pieces to my work puzzle this year, but that has been some type of crutch for me to rest on. This week, benzr challenged me to get off the crutch - and it hurt. It hurt me that I wasn't doing my best in all areas. It hurt me that I have been trying to keep up in this crazy race, but haven't made pace with my typical work ethic. I had blinders on my eyes, and had convinced myself that I was doing my best. Truth be told, my eyes were opened yesterday to the brutal truth that indeed I was not doing my flat out best. I was working hard, but I was missing opportunities to have an impact. I was missing opportunities to pour into others in order to make improvements in their lives of work. I knew things that I needed to do, but never got to doing th...

I am quite certain that God spoke to me through a dream I had last night, and I felt confirmed in that as I worked my new 'outdoor workout' in the park today. (Watch out aussie!) I woke up in the middle of a dream that was quite vivid. I was seeing this snake that was very large, and very long, I couldn't even see all of him. He was as dark as thunderstorm clouds are - that dark grey/black color, but really really dark. He had no face, but did have arms. He was building a wall of bricks, and slinging mortar or mud all over the bricks he was putting on the wall. The entire wall was covered in this dark sludge of mud so that you couldn't even see the bricks anymore. And I was handing him the bricks. When I handed it to him, he would slap sludge all over it and add it to the wall. As I awoke, I realized this was more than a dream. I felt like God told me to stop handing him the bricks. Because the snake is Satan, and I am choosing to hand him the bricks. I fel...

This might be the longest post title I have ever had here on MSD, but I feel like there is so much to say about this title. I've been working out of town for a few weeks, and really even more than that, as I was in Michigan for work many weeks this summer. It is challenging work, and definitely takes some getting used to not coming home to the girls, eating dinner with them, hearing highs and lows, etc. It certainly has allowed me to press into my spiritual development with the (additional?) time that I have had not being with the kkft. Daily prayer time = increased. Daily bible reading = increased. Getting through Hudson Taylor's Spiritual Secret book = 7 pages left now. Praying in the rental care = more than in my car. Praying for people I have never met or just getting to know = so much increased. Praying for the k girls = so so so much more each day as I miss the smiles laughs and hugs. Getting the picture here? I have been wrestling with a few things - one major ...