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Thanksgiving.  Such a big word.  What flood of memories washes into your head as you hear it?  Warm fire. Smell of the turkey cooking.  Laughter.  Football.  Snowflakes.  Family.  Friends.  Being thankful.  I suppose I am getting older.  Well, I dare say I am not just supposing anymore.  I am getting older.  And life seems to take on new meaning as you get older.  You appreciate things more, or should I say you appreciate people more.  I honestly can tell you that I have at one point or another dreaded the continuous trips back to MI to be with our family for the holidays.  Not because I don't want to be with them in any way shape form.  But the hours in the car.  Dreadful at times.  I love the time with my girls, but it just isn't fun.  But I digress.  This year, my Uncle Danny passed away, and the funeral was Saturday.  Friday at the funeral home.  And I was deeply convi...

I am trying to discern some things in my life right now, and clarity is not the word that comes to mind.  But I do know that God continues to push me on 'trust', and 'serving'.  These two things continue to be in the front of my mind, and yet the 'serving' part seems to be the most challenging.  In my current role, I feel like I am finally settling into understanding I am here to serve.  But there are moments when I flat out don't have a desire in my heart to serve.  I want to go sit in my milk closet (yes, the one where my laptop was stolen from the locked office) and spend time searching for a new job.  Honest - that is the desire of my heart at times.  But I have been simply crying out to God asking for Him to put His desire in my heart, and to help me want to do things He has put before me in this role.  It is frustrating, but I can see clearly that He is sustaining me, and even opening my heart and eyes to shut up and do what He asks me - to...